When I first thought to blog about David and my New York experiences, I was skeptical to do so because I just knew I wouldn't keep it up. I would leave you guys hanging, thinking, this isn't worth checking back with because I am sure Kate hasn't posted anything new recently. Not that any of you are thinking that... well, maybe Sally and Amy.
But here I am, here we are, and it has been weeks since I last made a post, minus the one I threw together about the Statue of Liberty. It isn't as if I don't have a multitude of experiences to share, it isn't as if I haven't taken photos. The thing is, I am no good at just throwing "something" together, I don't feel it does our experiences justice, nor is it fair to you guys. I was unsatisfied with the Lady Liberty post. I had so much to say, but I didn't take the time to articulate, I was feeling the "pressure" to get a blog posted. The actual truth? Some of you will be surprised at what I am about to say, so brace yourself:
I am a bit of a perfectionist.
Now, many of you who know me and have seen me in action; looking for my keys or wallet at the bottom of my purse, or in coat pockets, or on my kitchen counter, or in the car for that matter. And for those I worked with; looking for that invoice or catalog or (fill in the blank) on my desk or in the filing cabinet or on that pile next to the window. And for my girls; "give me just one second, I will be ready as soon as I find that sweater I wore 2 weeks ago, it has to be in this pile of clean/not so dirty clothes somewhere..." And for those who I have had the great pleasure of traveling with; "I know those socks are around here somewhere, oh wait! I left my pillow in the hotel."
Okay, so organization is not my best suit, you have all been witness to it. I am also not the best at grammar(I am working on it!) But when it comes to creating art I am a perfectionist. I create works to the best of my ability which can be debilitating because it doesn't look right from this or that angle, it doesn't express exactly what I want it to. I go back over and over to fix what I see as a problem, or an incorrect communication of ideas. As writing is an art, a communication of ideas, I find myself in the same predicament, even when composing the simplest communication via email or a blog entry. It takes time, and who am I kidding, sometimes I just don't have it in me to be creative, to take the time to express my ideas.
I am sorry I haven't posted as often as I would have liked, I will work on it. I want to share our New York experience with you, so keep checking back and maybe there will be a new post to be read or maybe not!